Arus' Poetry

You know, i’ve got a bad history
and for some reason, I can’t change that tendency.
That “good” language I can’t speak-
i think i’ve reached my peak.
They say i’m selfish and stubborn,
Since the day I was born,
not the type to reason,
Constantly changing like the seasons,
but i’m just living my own reality.
Mami hates that i smoke my cigarettes.
Papi hates That i’m a faggot.
but fuck, I can only continue to be me.
so hard for me to listen-
it’s like living in delusion.
maybe I wasn’t meant for evolution.
man, It sucks to be me.